Mind a Little Too Much

I hate thinking about you.
The thought of you in my mind, drives me crazy.
Literally.
I go insane.
It's not normal to think of you the way I do, and it scares the shit out of me.
When you're in my mind, I just want you out of it.
But when my mind isn't full with thoughts of you, I start to miss them.
I start to miss you.
When you disappear, I start to worry.
I make myself think about you, but another thought comes instantly, and you go away again.
Damn.
It's almost like a drug.
I'm addicted to the drug inside my mind.
What the fuck?
It sounds insane.
I hate thinking about you because of how you make me scream at the top of my lungs to get you out of my mind.
But I must like the feeling if I miss it when you're not here inside.

...an old one, but maybe a goodie...

Unnecessary

As I watch the sway of your walk,
the lightly shake of your shoulder blades,
your back toward my contemplating eyes.
Should I or should I not reach for you,
to touch your slight freckled shoulder,
only one little soft touch to let you know.
I am here.
I am here to save your noisy life of unnecessary chaos,
of the unnecessary nonsense,
replaced with my opinions of what is extremely necessary.
My nonsense.
Your life will be full of confusion, chaos, happy laughter.
Your eyes will glisten to the life of me.
Though, it's a bitter lie.
You will be mad,
with frustration because you turned me away to be with her.
To be with unnecessary, empty, predictable life of her.
It will be unnecessary for you to be with necessary me.

One Sad Emo Note

Have you ever just wanted to drive around on the country back roads, and you listen to the music all the way up, and you're crying your heart out?
Yeah... Me too.

Have you ever just wanted to stay in bed all day and just sleep. Not caring whether or not if the other people in the house are complaining about the fact that you're a lazy bum?
Yeah... Me too.

Have you ever thought that you were so much more mature than you're older brother and sister, and thought that, that was such a pathetic and sad thing to think. But oh so true?
Yeah... Same here.

Have you ever wish that you could just purchase a train or plane ticket, and just escape. Start a new life somewhere else. Forget the problems you once had. But stop and think about the people you love, and think about how you can't just leave them behind. So you stay and suffer for them.
Yeah... Ditto.